The Little Man Inside Me by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
The Little Man Inside Me
Hi there,
Remember me?
I'm the one who gave you everything you have,
I'm the one who taught you everything you know,
I'm the one who was there when you were down,
I'm the one who you can't get rid of,
'Cause I'm here to stay forever,
I am your pain, your strife,
Every grief you feel,
I am that which makes you strong,
Without me you are weak,
I hate you, and you hate me,
And we love each other,
Because we cannot exist without each other,
I am your very struggle,
No existence is without struggle,
There is no pure existence,
I am closest to pure,
Purely hateful,
You can't ever throw me out,
I am a part of you,
I am who you
Psycho Mofo,
Don't give a fuck anymore,
I've had it with sanity,
It's too hard to keep control,
I'm gonna let it loose and let it fucking go!!!
Watch out! I'll be coming for you!
I'd be coming for you if it wasn't for her,
Your ass would be mine if it weren't for her,
Consider her your guardian angel,
I want to lash out,
To violence you in the most demented way,
You'll be a pile of dead lifeless meat if I ever put hands on you,
Fuck!
I'll make you my bitch you little cock sucker!
Fuck you! Pound your face in and put in a grinder,
You don't know my anger,
My very soul cries out for your pain,
Your anguish,
I am nothing but a
Welcome,
To your hell,
We have taken the battle field,
Brace yourself,
I will not relent...
Do you know who you are?
You are my enemy,
You are my hatred,
Do you know who I am?
I am your nightmare,
Created from malice,
I am here to hurt you,
I am here to violence you,
I am an artist,
An artist of death,
An artist of your downfall,
My paint is blood,
My masterpiece is yet to be created,
I love battle,
I love to fight.
I can't express to you in words,
What I can express in emotion,
If I told you I was angry,
You wouldn't get the message,
If I yelled at you and pounded my fist into the wall,
A switch flips in your head,
You might stand up with urgency and become uneasy,
If I put my hand out,
You would probably reach yours out to shake mine,
If I asked you to be my friend you might accept,
If I saved your life you might immediately consider me a friend,
If I threatened you with a weapon you might consider me an enemy,
So this is psychology?
Well, call it what you want,
Knowledge, maturity, bullshit,
But don't think you're superior,
What you c
My life,
A mystery,
How the hell am I supposed to know what to do?
My life,
A hell,
Almost constant pain, tormenting me,
My life,
A psychotic one,
I love the pain, but don't know why,
My life,
Busy all the time,
Can't satisfy the people I want to, and that saddens me,
My life,
Confusing,
Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to be someone else,
My life,
A pile of shit,
Yet it doesn't get thrown away,
My life,
Nothing but questions and complaints,
Someone to answer and resolve it all would be nice.
Where have you gone, where have you been?
I've been waiting for you hear,
My sweet sweet insanity,
Oh how I love you so dear,
I've got you back,
I'm on the tracks,
To where I once was headed before,
On my mind are treacherous thoughts of blood, guts, and gore,
I read my poems,
And remembered my hatred,
Like a good little demented boy I obey,
Like I'm a slave,
To my hatred,
I love to hate
Remembering My Place by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
Remembering My Place
You weren't meant to have friends,
You should not be here,
This is not your place,
The voice in my head rings out,
So loud, dominating my thoughts,
My friends laugh,
While on the inside I cry,
I thought this is where I wanted to be,
But now I know,
This is not my place,
I should be sweating, when everyone else is laughing,
Working, when everyone else is resting,
Bleeding, when everyone else is healing,
That is my place,
That is what I long for,
A life of pain,
Will bring strength,
If I do not die,
I will be stronger,
A life of war,
Unrelenting battle,
Fight till death,
This is my place,
Blood, sweat, and tears,
I will
To Catch a Kidnapper by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
To Catch a Kidnapper
I'm going crazy,
My whole life seems hazy,
I didn't plan this,
I didn't think it would happen,
I just suddenly snapped and...
There she was,
With that pentagram,
And my crazy drugs,
Out from her hands,
I grabbed my stash,
My secrets, my written thoughts, and my hash,
But God knows,
She wouldn't keep silent,
This stuff seemed potentially violent,
I'd be out of my mind if I thought she'd keep quiet,
I took her to the basement,
Where no one can hear her scream,
Knocked her up side the head,
And she fell into an endless dream,
I don't know what I'm doing,
I abducted a friend,
I only did it because of the voices in my head,
I
I have lost sight,
Of the path I know is mine,
I hated this way,
But now I know it's my life,
This is the path that I shall walk,
Because this is the path, where no one talks,
Here, we let our walking do the talking,
And our words, support our emotion,
Make us feel like we're floatin',
Or make our furry potent,
I do not settle for average,
And I do not stop improving,
When I perform good I must perform better,
When I perform great I must perform better,
At no time in my life will I stop,
Constantly driving forward,
Will you recognize me now?
Will you recognize me when I get there,
I probably should not care,
But it's my att
I once believed that pain was a state of mind,
Now I believe pain is what makes you stronger,
The amount of pain you can take is the definition of strength,
That's why I kept hurting myself,
I love pain because it makes me stronger,
And strength is what I desire,
Strength is what I need,
I am stronger when I am in pain,
I could never figure out why, but now I have the answer,
The pain reminds me that I am still alive,
But why am I so weak without it?
Is pain the source of my strength?
What kind of fucked up thing am I?
But if pain truly is what makes me stronger,
Then I won't hesitate to hurt myself...
The Little Man Inside Me by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
The Little Man Inside Me
Hi there,
Remember me?
I'm the one who gave you everything you have,
I'm the one who taught you everything you know,
I'm the one who was there when you were down,
I'm the one who you can't get rid of,
'Cause I'm here to stay forever,
I am your pain, your strife,
Every grief you feel,
I am that which makes you strong,
Without me you are weak,
I hate you, and you hate me,
And we love each other,
Because we cannot exist without each other,
I am your very struggle,
No existence is without struggle,
There is no pure existence,
I am closest to pure,
Purely hateful,
You can't ever throw me out,
I am a part of you,
I am who you
Psycho Mofo,
Don't give a fuck anymore,
I've had it with sanity,
It's too hard to keep control,
I'm gonna let it loose and let it fucking go!!!
Watch out! I'll be coming for you!
I'd be coming for you if it wasn't for her,
Your ass would be mine if it weren't for her,
Consider her your guardian angel,
I want to lash out,
To violence you in the most demented way,
You'll be a pile of dead lifeless meat if I ever put hands on you,
Fuck!
I'll make you my bitch you little cock sucker!
Fuck you! Pound your face in and put in a grinder,
You don't know my anger,
My very soul cries out for your pain,
Your anguish,
I am nothing but a
Welcome,
To your hell,
We have taken the battle field,
Brace yourself,
I will not relent...
Do you know who you are?
You are my enemy,
You are my hatred,
Do you know who I am?
I am your nightmare,
Created from malice,
I am here to hurt you,
I am here to violence you,
I am an artist,
An artist of death,
An artist of your downfall,
My paint is blood,
My masterpiece is yet to be created,
I love battle,
I love to fight.
I can't express to you in words,
What I can express in emotion,
If I told you I was angry,
You wouldn't get the message,
If I yelled at you and pounded my fist into the wall,
A switch flips in your head,
You might stand up with urgency and become uneasy,
If I put my hand out,
You would probably reach yours out to shake mine,
If I asked you to be my friend you might accept,
If I saved your life you might immediately consider me a friend,
If I threatened you with a weapon you might consider me an enemy,
So this is psychology?
Well, call it what you want,
Knowledge, maturity, bullshit,
But don't think you're superior,
What you c
My life,
A mystery,
How the hell am I supposed to know what to do?
My life,
A hell,
Almost constant pain, tormenting me,
My life,
A psychotic one,
I love the pain, but don't know why,
My life,
Busy all the time,
Can't satisfy the people I want to, and that saddens me,
My life,
Confusing,
Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to be someone else,
My life,
A pile of shit,
Yet it doesn't get thrown away,
My life,
Nothing but questions and complaints,
Someone to answer and resolve it all would be nice.
Remembering My Place by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
Remembering My Place
You weren't meant to have friends,
You should not be here,
This is not your place,
The voice in my head rings out,
So loud, dominating my thoughts,
My friends laugh,
While on the inside I cry,
I thought this is where I wanted to be,
But now I know,
This is not my place,
I should be sweating, when everyone else is laughing,
Working, when everyone else is resting,
Bleeding, when everyone else is healing,
That is my place,
That is what I long for,
A life of pain,
Will bring strength,
If I do not die,
I will be stronger,
A life of war,
Unrelenting battle,
Fight till death,
This is my place,
Blood, sweat, and tears,
I will
To Catch a Kidnapper by thelosttheignored, literature
Literature
To Catch a Kidnapper
I'm going crazy,
My whole life seems hazy,
I didn't plan this,
I didn't think it would happen,
I just suddenly snapped and...
There she was,
With that pentagram,
And my crazy drugs,
Out from her hands,
I grabbed my stash,
My secrets, my written thoughts, and my hash,
But God knows,
She wouldn't keep silent,
This stuff seemed potentially violent,
I'd be out of my mind if I thought she'd keep quiet,
I took her to the basement,
Where no one can hear her scream,
Knocked her up side the head,
And she fell into an endless dream,
I don't know what I'm doing,
I abducted a friend,
I only did it because of the voices in my head,
I
I have lost sight,
Of the path I know is mine,
I hated this way,
But now I know it's my life,
This is the path that I shall walk,
Because this is the path, where no one talks,
Here, we let our walking do the talking,
And our words, support our emotion,
Make us feel like we're floatin',
Or make our furry potent,
I do not settle for average,
And I do not stop improving,
When I perform good I must perform better,
When I perform great I must perform better,
At no time in my life will I stop,
Constantly driving forward,
Will you recognize me now?
Will you recognize me when I get there,
I probably should not care,
But it's my att
I once believed that pain was a state of mind,
Now I believe pain is what makes you stronger,
The amount of pain you can take is the definition of strength,
That's why I kept hurting myself,
I love pain because it makes me stronger,
And strength is what I desire,
Strength is what I need,
I am stronger when I am in pain,
I could never figure out why, but now I have the answer,
The pain reminds me that I am still alive,
But why am I so weak without it?
Is pain the source of my strength?
What kind of fucked up thing am I?
But if pain truly is what makes me stronger,
Then I won't hesitate to hurt myself...
Dream,
Dream baby dream,
And dream of me,
I'll see,
You in your dreams,
And you'll see,
Me in my dreams,
And we'll be,
Together in our dreamland full of us,
Dream,
Dream baby dream,
Will you dream of me?
I might see,
You standing there,
With your mighty,
Beautiful hair,
And your pretty smile,
That makes me laugh,
And we could be together for just a while,
I'd do anything to be with you for just one moment.
I remember
Being picked up and spun
My heart would fly and flutter
I remember
When you used to make me smile
But now,
Every thought makes my heart sink a little lower
It makes my vision
Just a little more blurred
I have to accept
That when I see you in the hallway,
My heart will always stop
My blood will always run cold
Because baby believe me when I say
when I look at you
All I see is red
Top hats top hats, hard done by from the rain. Looking for a new one to cover my shame. Wishing I could see, wishing I could act, wishing I could be the man with the hat. Ask for forgiveness, ask for permission, ask for a Christmas, ask for a name. Try to rhyme and try to sing, try to dance and attempt victory. Get out of the gutter and fall back to your tree, now understand that they're here for your kid. These are the words
That
Fall
From
My
Head.
No meaning in them, only dread. So listen to me drone and listen to me prattle, learn
Current Residence: nowheretobefound deviantWEAR sizing preference: wtf is that!? (no seriously) Favourite genre of music: metal/death metal/unblack metal/metalcore and some technoish stuff MP3 player of choice: zune Favourite cartoon character: gangryong from veritas Personal Quote: Wanna go?
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
as of now living sacrifice but that's subject to change eventually
Favourite Games
Gears of War
Favourite Gaming Platform
xbox360
Tools of the Trade
brain
Other Interests
almost anything anime or manga, music, knowledge, computers, Asian food, Hockey, playing guitar
Wow, I'm pissed off at my friends right now. This is different...but what the hell? They're all doing wrong and they think it's right. I mean I guess that sounds judgmental, but hey a lot of them are judging me so to each his own. I get my own to judge them back. And they don't want to accept my Christian views so much and that's not a real friend. Some of them practically get mad at me just for talking about it. But I have to say I really appreciate the friends who do actually listen and let me get my point out and listen to it. And then like we have a conversation and they say words back not just someone preaching their beliefs to the other
*sigh* I wish I could write something good... I think I have the content in my head but I don't know how to get it out... lol isn't that just kinda how you define the skill of a writer? yeahhh.... so I guess what I'm saying is I suck at it. Bleh...